Blessed

It's been months, but I really felt the urge to get back to my blog....When I opened up my account, I found this unfinished post - it was the day before my birthday.  Even though the timing doesn't quite fit now that it is four months later, I feel that it is a perfect place to begin....So, in italics you have what I began on April 19th; to follow, you will have what is written August 16th.

A year ago this week I made a huge decision that would change my life forever.  I didn't know the hows, whens, or wheres, but somehow the pieces all fell into place because I trusted God would take care of my children and myself. 
I turn 31 tomorrow.  I'm not one whose big on age - it's just a number - I really think I will remain 25 forever - but I do look at my age in years as markers on a timeline. 
18 - graduated
22 - married, started teaching job
25 - twins were born
28 - Little Man born
30 - separated, moved, started new job
31 - new beginning?  moving forward....not sure what 31 will bring yet, but I do know this for certain -
I am VERY BLESSED -
Things have really changed since I began this post.  A week after beginning this, I was officially divorced.  Two weeks after writing this, I was informed I would no longer be teaching in the district I had just spent the last year getting acquainted with.  All that I had put my heart into was now being taken from me.  The picture that I had finally started forming in my head of what this new beginning and life was going to look like for my kids and I was suddenly ripped away.  Now What?!?!?!  What could possibly be next??  Haven't we been through enough changes?  Wasn't this where You wanted us to start over?  Wasn't I supposed to make a difference and help others here?  Wasn't this supposed to be my new community?  What about my kids??  What do I tell them??  What about my students?  What about all I was going to do this summer and next year and continue to do in this classroom??  Why God???  The questions never stop....  The tears continue to pop up on me and surprise me at random times.  Why is this happening?  What am I going to do?  What are You trying to tell me???
31 - unknown - what I do know is that I trust in God and that is the only thing that will get me through.
My reading for June 27th from Sara Young's book Jesus Calling, the night that it was confirmed I would no longer be in the same place I was all last year, said this:
"Rest with Me a while.  You have journeyed up a steep, rugged path in recent days.  The way ahead is shrouded in uncertainty.  Look neither behind you nor before you.  Instead, focus your attention on Me, your constant Companion.  Trust that I will equip you fully for whatever awaits you on your journey.  I designed time to be a protection for you.  You couldn't bear to see all your life at once.  Though I am unlimited by time, it is in the present moment that I meet you.  Refresh yourself in My company, breathing deep draughts of My Presence.  The highest level of trust is to enjoy Me moment by moment. I am with you , watching over you wherever you go."
God was telling me once again to TRUST Him.  He gave me this last year for a reason.  He gave it to us as a small piece to help get us to the next step up the ladder of life.  He doesn't show us the whole ladder and each step above because we "can't bear to see all our life at once!"
We are Blessed.

For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God.  Ephesians 2:8  

But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus
Philippians 4:19

There is soooo much to be thankful for.  God is Good.  We are blessed.  The words I tell myself when I begin to worry and get discouraged:  When you think you've got it bad, it could always be worse.  

Blessings!  :)