Question??

Last night I had to question God.  I was struggling.  I just didn't understand why certain things were happening and how in the world it could work itself through.  I wrapped my prayer shawl around me and REALLY PRAYED.  I mean closed my eyes, hands over my head, bent over and PRAYED.  I needed answers.  I needed bits of doubt and confusion to be cleared up.  I needed ANSWERS!  And I needed GODS answers.  Directly from HIM.  I wasn't satisfied with what I was reading, I wasn't satisfied with what I was trying to interpret.  I wasn't satisfied with trusting myself.  Well, that was my problem.  This is what came to me - what God spoke. 
Staci, Listen to ME!  Staci, Staci, Listen to ME.  Trust Me.  You cannot figure this out on your own.  You cannot do this on your own.  You need ME.  You need to turn it over to ME and let Me take care of you.  I have plans.  Follow my path....Depend on Me....

WOW.  Pretty incredible.  After that, I read my book Broken Into Beautiful by Gwen Smith.  Matthew Simpson  describes mosaics he saw..  God is picking up the little worthless pieces of stone and brass that might be trodden underfoot unnoticed, and is making of them His great masterpiece.  Gwen says, "It reminds me that when the broken pieces of our lives are placed in the loving hands of our extraordinary God, they can be transformed into divine work of beauty.  Oh, how it causes me to wonder why God would even care to hold my broken pieces, let alone arrange them, polish them, and gently transform them into something whole...something beautiful."  Ken Gire in his book, The North Face of God: When suffering shatters the carefully kept vase that is our lives, God stoops to pick up the pieces.  But He doesn't put them back together as a restoration project patterned after our former selves.  Instead, He sifts through the rubble and selects some of the shards as raw material for another project - a mosaic that tells the story of redemption.  Gwen goes on to say.  "You may find it hard to hand over hurts.  I get that.  It's hard for me too.  But difficult as it may be, it's time to hand them over and let our masterful Lord create a stunning work of beauty in you.  And He's going to need all of your broken pieces to complete the mosaic."

Too be continued....